My ex and I hung out yesterday. Simped over her while we were together and then thought about it and called her an hour later.
Letting her know that I'm trying to become a better man and apologized for how I acted but she never once apologized or even made an attempt to be a better woman, and she must not truly have loved me bc she waited 5 days after I let her know I got out of the hospital to visit her, and that she's playing games. That's her issue, should've never told her I wouldn't abandon her or she can call me or come over.
But I feel like I at least kept it nice and I think she kinda felt that ether bc the whole time she had felt shed had me wrapped around her finger.
The weird thing was once we met up I was happy and in shape in a cut off shirt and she wanted me to put a sweater on, we're at my apartment and at a cafe and she's acting like I'm hers still staring chicks down, paying for my coffee. Trying to show intimacy but pulling away.
I've been meditating, bc I did discover I do need to work on my anger. But I'm like man I'm over here growing and becoming more of a man, wait till I get back to work and get a check, and you just seem so bitter and angry and miserable that we broke up and you're the one that broke up with me.
I still got love for her, but she's not growing up and she's not coming correct and I'm the best man that she's had, a dude that would actually get her to pray. Intelligent classy athletic and caring and hardworking and clean with morals.
So I'm not hitting that, bird brained bytch up no mo.