Yea it does. Fortunately I can limit myself from entering her room or just lingering around her for no apparent reason. I just now was in her room and she handed me her phone to check something for her and she left and curiosity overcame me and I just took a gander through her texts. Nothing major or whatnot but just a lot of convo's between different guys, some of them obviously coming off like she "likes" the guys.
After a while in there laying on her bed while she just did some things around the house, going in and out the room, I like someone who has nothing better to do just lingered around in her room. I was literally in her room from about 9PM to 11PM just laying on her bed on my phone browsing the coli while she ironed her clothes, took a bath, did some cosmetic work on herself and whatnot..
Finally close to 11 o clock she came on the bed and laid next to me but on opposite ends while she was chatting on facebook I assume. After laying there quiet for about 5 minutes, I just got up and hugged her and wished her a happy b day and left.(her b day tomorrow.)
After this I'm just going to stop really talking to her or messing with her besides a greeting or whatnot. I feel like I've put too much thoughts and energy into her and it just doesn't feel reciprocated and honestly it seems stupid to even want it reciprocated. Here I am, 25 years old, no kids with a car and a place to stay stressing out over an ex girlfriend who clearly has options or whatnot and sitting here plotting and thinking of ways to get in her draws.
Admittedly, I think I could've BEEN got em had I not been so hesitant and nervous but I think it's really not worth it in the long run.
I'll just sit this one out. I'm not ashamed to admit she's been the center of my thoughts for the past month and change. It's just not worth it,
I feel like I'm devaluing myself and wasting my time sitting around and constantly messing with her. Though she doesn't seem to mind me around and will play back, I feel it's just wasted effort on my part because there's no genuine interest from me aside from wanting sex and nothing else.