I think I realized what my problem is. I was at boxing the other day, and my coach was like "You know what your doing in there (the ring). You know JUST what your doing, but I'm gonna need you to be more CONFIDENT. You got the stuff, your just not being confident enough, that's all..."
He was 100 percent correct. But not only about my boxing, but about everything in general leading up to now in life, including women. I'd always kind of half-ass it when it came to the game, mainly because it ain't worth it to me. But, I was always underconfident due to shyt from childhood fukking with my subconscious. It's not like I even have a reason to have low confidence; It's kind of just "there" for some reason. I wish I could just reach into my brain and pull out whatever it is that's fukking with my life, but I guess it doesn't work like that. I think psychedelics will work wonders, since whenever I took shrooms I'd have a better sense of well-being afterwards. However, them shyts are hard to come by in my area.
Back to women: Basically, i'm thinking I may just have to say "fukk it,' and ignore that little voice of self-doubt until it finally goes away. I tried to say fukk FEMALES, GET YOURS, but I work around too many bad women on a daily basis. I have to have at least have a couple on the roster...