I told myself before summer started this summer would be lit and I would be a scum bag. And boy did that shyt happen. I've gotten more p*ssy and nudes of chicks these two months more than I've gotten my entire 22 year life. I don't have a car, my own house, or even a job. The only thing I got going for me right now is I got one more year of community college then I can transfer. Yeah I'm on that bum status right now but I believe its better to be in this position at 22 than to be in this at 32.The crazy thing about this I still got females this summer. I do realize to get the baddest top notch females I got to have the things I don't have now. But I realized I'll get those in the future so I don't try even bagging dime pieces at the moment. I have no problems banging some 7s and below its not like I'm dating them.
Speaking of dating I do not want that shyt in my life. I'm a very big ME person. I need more time alone than being with family and friends. I just enjoy being alone watching shows reading on the coli and other shyt you can do alone. I don't consider that bad nor do I consider wanting to be single while everyone is tied up with kids already is. I realize a lot of people who get married and have kids very early in their 20's try to grow up fast as fukk. The craziest thing about this all is they sort of give off some certain peer pressure vibe to us single dudes to get a girl and have kids too. Because if not they will exclude you from their life and move on to hang out with other couples with kids. What I've learned from the inside out about these situations from my parents, other family members, and other examples, majority of the time the girl you're with in your 20s with won't be with you down the line. We know how big divorce is in America so my point of view is why waste your 20s spending it with one person? I know people are afraid to be alone once they're older but you shouldn't feel that way in your 20s? I believe in being that guy drinking all the henny and smashing chicks in my 20s.
The reason why I brought up dating is because I fell into the trap before the summer even started, Last semester there was this group that hung out at the school so I started hanging with them waiting on my classes. One of the girls I got her snapchat. One night I got mad drunk and snapped her giving her a compliment then she said shes not going down like that because she's not looking for that type of dude. I should have noticed she set me up right off the bat but my drunk ass took this as a challenge. I don't remember how I pulled it off but she was like "

we can keep this a secret." I'm like shyt I won I can smash on the low. NOPE. When she said keep this a secret I'm guessing she only meant me because within two days everyone in the school group knew about it and made the entire group awkward. They kept peer pressuring me telling me she liked me and when am I going to ask her out. I was worried about hurting her feelings in front of everyone so I asked her out and there was that. I figured even though I didn't like her like that I could smash all the time. I did things with her and got a large collection of nudes of her but god damn I hated being with her. I know this sounds bogus but shes 100 percent boring. I couldn't relate to her in any way, we had different interest, she wasn't funny, never said anything, got pissed at me if I didn't reply within a minute and always made me feel bad for turning up and most importantly she took away from my alone time I enjoy. So I had to break that shyt up. I tried doing it in the nicest way to not hurt her feelings.in the worst place possible, I mean this was why I got in this position to begin with. She said its cool and she understood because I didn't want a relationship in the first place. She told me we could be cool as long as we remained friends and tried to talk to her once in awhile. So I'm like cool. My snapchat went back to drinking sessions and talking about bytches. Then I tried talking to her and she was even more boring because she literally put no effort in. She gave off that why you talking to me vibe. So right here I knew that "I'm okay" thing being a lie by women is the truth. But what I learned from this is you got to put yourself first. If I just put myself first instead of hers this never would have been wasted time. I did do things with her and got the nudes like I said so I guess it wasn't overall bad.
But after that I smashed a few girls and been living it up. One of the girls I messaged her for a week then the very first time on the fourth of july we decided to kick it she rode the shyt outta me on a chair in the back yard. after that I didn't message her for weeks and once I did she wasn't cool with me anymore lmao. I got nudes from my friend ex but I started to feel guilty and stopped talking to her.
but besides the girls i smashed and got nudes from I did take L's because they come with part of the game when you're trying to smash and there is competition not only from dudes but girls.
I'm confused about my L's tho.The girls that gave me the L's besides the girls who don't reply back, be very complexed for no reason. One girl this summer told me I can smash multiple times but every time I'm like lets meet up she always ended up being busy or ended up in a different location by then. I said lets meet up so easily because she lives only a few streets down. If you don't wanna fukk I get it but don't keep flirting and telling me I can then go ghost. Another thing she does is she still messages me but when I do reply she gives me two messages and stops replying. She does this every other day it confuses me so much like whats the point of messaging me if you're not gonna reply but just share shyt all day on fb?
Another L I took is hollering at my ex friend. She supposed to be lesbian or whatever but she was telling me how she liked me so in my mind I'm a smash. But she does the same shyt and goes ghosts when I'm trying to kick it. So I cut her completely off.
Those complex L'z I took seemed like they wanted nothing but my attention when no one else gave them some. So this goes back to me saying putting your feelings first is best because why I got to worry about their feelings when they just want to use up all your attention?
Overall my summer was a success being a scum bag and just worrying about myself like I always did got me more p*ssy than trying to care for a chick. I don't know if its just these new crop of girls like it better that way or its just this age group or what... Idc tho its working for me