Had another date with this girl. This makes four. She can make anything fun.
I notice that she is very busy with her career and I applaud that. I was complaining about not getting enough time with her but I have a lot on my plate at the moment.
She asks me about my father's death and has told me on more than one occasion I should take some time for myself. She mentioned the other night that I should seek counseling. Even though I visibly don't show it, there are times that I'm thinking about my father and want to break down due to the loss. I'm not afraid of being vulnerable but of course I need to be emotionally healthy.
I'm also job hunting. Got laid off over a month ago and I've had many prospects. Getting to second and third round interviews but nothing in the pocket yet. It's incredibly frustrating considering my last layoff was on a smaller scale, I had more severance pay, had less expenses, and I was able to land an offer within six weeks. I was thankful for that too because I got to spend a lot of time with my parents.
I don't want to divulge the job situation with her and scare of off with that too. I was making six figures in my last role and I'm certain to find something, but for more specialized roles it adds a bit more difficulty to interview and land something. The process is incredibly draining and at times demoralizing. So I think the one day a week pace we are doing is OK for now. I'm not ready for a full relationship at the moment, but her and I can peel the layers of our psyche and get to know one another.