that whole thread disgusts me get married brehs
Wow. Your experiences are scary (sorry). I am a 31 year old single mom to a wonderful 4 year old boy. The father of my son, (whom I was completely crazy inlove with, who sparked and satisfied all my sexual desires) is a complete loser - the last time he saw my son he was 6 weeks old; he is irresponsible, selfish, lazy among other things...and so I made the decision that the next man I devote myself to, who will be a father to my son and be a great example to him, would be the complete opposite. I have met that man, we've actually known each other for 16 years, as best friends. He not only is respectful, gentle, responsible, loving, and a gentleman; he also has an amazing relationship with my son and my family. He really spends quality time with my son doing all the things a father should do. He is concerned about my sons well being and mine too. He adores me, loves me dearly, and has been in love with me ever since we met 16 years ago, and to top it all he wants to marry me. We've had sex a couple of times years ago and just recently when we went on holiday together (as friends). The experience was terrible then, and even so now…and this l believe is because I do not find him sexually attractive at all! We have a great time together, intellectually he stimulates me and his company is great but...I just cannot imagine myself sharing a bed with him every night, kissing him and having sex with him. I sometimes cringe when he touches me and am annoyed when he wants to hug me or wants to be "nice". He is a wonderful man, he would make a perfect partner and an amazing father (my son adores him), but I am just not attracted to him. My mother and siblings, well everybody we know really, tells me that if I let him go I will never find anybody better than him; especially because I am not getting any younger. They also tell me that I am the one with the problem and should try and change my mind set to seeing him as this desirable man...how possible is that... I am starting to believe them and I am afraid of being alone, or ending up with another “the father of my son” type.