When that feeling enters your gut
Something seems off, something feels different. Communication has dwindled, they are always busy now, the distance is stretching further and further. You Google your concerns and time and time again every article you click is telling you the same thing.
While everyone is different and every situation is not the same, it's amazing how the script is followed to the tee all across the world. Everyone thinks their love is special out of a movie, and the bond they have is something you just can't fathom. You don't know them like I do, you're bitter/jaded what we have is so special and different - yeah sure.
Word to those all wide eyed clinging to hope - It's over, It's over! Although the natural instinct that comes on is to fight it, ask what's wrong, try to come on stronger, thoughts of this cannot be happening to me will consume you. Bottom line is that someone who is drowning panics and makes bad decisions. The heart wants what it wants so to speak - I've been there before, thinking what I had was different and made the same mistake time and time again. Had my fears calmed with lies, as I held on for dear life only for the rope to be severed as I hit the rocks below.
And well those days are over regardless of the level of a relationship whether it's platonic or romantic, I don't ask why or wait around for explanations to why someone does not want me in their life or values anymore. Nor do I wait for that rope to be cut as I hit the rocks below and nurse myself back to strength, nah once I see the signs I'll take my exit on my own terms.
Something seems off, something feels different. Communication has dwindled, they are always busy now, the distance is stretching further and further. You Google your concerns and time and time again every article you click is telling you the same thing.
While everyone is different and every situation is not the same, it's amazing how the script is followed to the tee all across the world. Everyone thinks their love is special out of a movie, and the bond they have is something you just can't fathom. You don't know them like I do, you're bitter/jaded what we have is so special and different - yeah sure.
Word to those all wide eyed clinging to hope - It's over, It's over! Although the natural instinct that comes on is to fight it, ask what's wrong, try to come on stronger, thoughts of this cannot be happening to me will consume you. Bottom line is that someone who is drowning panics and makes bad decisions. The heart wants what it wants so to speak - I've been there before, thinking what I had was different and made the same mistake time and time again. Had my fears calmed with lies, as I held on for dear life only for the rope to be severed as I hit the rocks below.
And well those days are over regardless of the level of a relationship whether it's platonic or romantic, I don't ask why or wait around for explanations to why someone does not want me in their life or values anymore. Nor do I wait for that rope to be cut as I hit the rocks below and nurse myself back to strength, nah once I see the signs I'll take my exit on my own terms.
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/ the dualities, the fukkery. the dissaapearing acts. so a chick i was sweatin yes i admit it. was cool. chemisty was craaa. i just kept it polite with her honestly didnt throw my thirst out there. her body was 
no kids own spot own car etc. she says she single. we even got up and kicked it had a ball. didnt spend no bread or nothin descieving far as i can see. we just talked and build. only thing strange was she seemed like she's been mistreated in past relationships etc. she would talk down on nikkaz randomly not me but most nikkaz. I ignored this...... we still was communicating very well so it seemed and what i thought was building. so i end up goin out of town for a weekend. get back. shorty a compeltely whole diff person 
. the miscommunication/im always busy era period starts and begans 
. i never even touched the broad so im not pressed. this was based on conversations all while i was gone she kept in touch. so fast forward me already bein victimized by women/hoes before see where this is goin. I KNOW WHAT TIME IT IS BREHS..... so instead of worrying and starting a investigation or pressin the b1tch. ima G i knew what time it was. so i just shake it off like damn on to the next one all while scratching my head i must admit.
i still wanna knock it down but ANYWAY.... so out the blue this creepy broad hits me back up eventually. starts saying hello and explains. but she tells me she's been upset lately cause one of her as she puts it "HOMIES"stole some $$$ from her and some belongings from her house. so she's been upset lately and she apologizes for the disapearance. .
mind you i never even began or attemptin to contact her. i just get hit up with this bull a week later.
so i just thought i share the story. because in all honesty whether this happened or not. it was just distasteful. i had to disassociate myself. felt like this chick was too old for that nonsense. and she shouldnt have even told me cuz now im
. like brehs how does a middle age 20 year old hoe prob gettin robbed in her own apartment. 
pretty sure she was drug free. don wanna even find out. sounds like fishy bidness anyway. for all i know he prob was in the cut knockn it down seen my text and decided to rob this chick he was most likely livin off of lol. prob seen my texts and schemed on his hoe 
furthermore i didnt even care to wonder 
b1tch who????? what???? didnt even know how to cheer this dumb b1tch up 
im fukked out here.
say "sorry to hear that" 
she prob a booster who knows 
im surrounded breh. 
, it's not going to stop me or discourage me from meeting a new woman and hoping for the best. It is what it is.
, but when you get older and deal with more experiences, you just sit back and are able to read someone to a tee on some bill duke in menace 