Womb Raider
sigh….*unzips pants*
Aw man. This made me think back to when my parents were married and how I thought about relationships how you described them.Does anyone think that growing up in a family without dysfunction made you wide eyed and believing the Disney quote unquote way of marriage and relationships?
I mean I never saw infidelity, abuse, game playing.
Like I was so protected between that and seeing harmony couples at church that I had such a unrealistic view of marriage and relationships.
That all I saw was the good in women, their sweet, caring, loving and this is going to last they have my best intention at heart.
I used to believe in all that simp naive shyt when I was a youngin, shyt really never changed until I experienced things myself. I mean I saw my mom cheat on my dad (stepdad, but dude took care of me since I was 2 and he gets that respect regardless of our blood), I witnessed her keep me and my siblings away from him, snuck phone conversations with him and the kids, even moved out of her house to live with him...my dad went from the family man to a broken man to someone who fukks women whenever and can tell me exactly how a woman is by showing him a profile picture from fb.
Those things never fukked me up to the point where I have serious commitment issues but I certainly don't see women as I used to. Nowadays it's the same cycle as you previously described, you meet someone, tell them what you want, the facade begins and then slowly fades away and here you are again at square one. I do believe that there is someone out there for me but idk if I can ever take the concept of marriage seriously after witnessing certain things...I can't even trust anyone enough to fully commit to them but I think family dysfunction and personal experiences are two different things.