ok and how is that

Nope, I haven't had "friends" since 08 and they weren't even my friends. I found out when I wasn't around they would talk about me behind my back and this had been going on since middle school. fukk that
you should always have a few people you can count in
not to get all bibilical on you but in the bible there is a story where a man was paralyzed for years and years and Jesus healed him, but how did Jesus heal him? his friends carried him to where Jesus was and lowered him in from the roof.
What I mean is sometimes situations in life occurs where you may need someone to "carry" you, maybe your paralyzed from the neck down, maybe you lose your job and need to borrow money, maybe you just need someone who cares to listen
I don't have alot of friends because I have a strong definition of what I friend is but I have a few,and I can count on these people.
I don't associate with many people, id rather relax and read a book than go out, id rather travel by myself than with people, i dont talk to my friends every day but if I need them they are there.

It's so hard to picture a woman being attracted to me even though I've witnessed it.
It's cost me so much over the years. And now, I'm at a point in life wher damn near everyone else I know had graduated from college and I didn't so it's even harder now because I feel like such a loser.
Then there's the fact that I haven't had any sort of real relationship with a woman and it just adds up to a vicious cycle of doubt and low self-esteem.
I think it has a lot to do with my parents even though they meant well. My dad always taught me to do this, and have that, to have women, but nothing about self-love. He was only 19 when I was born so he was growing up too, but now he sees what he's done wrong.
The positive thing about this is that now I've actually identified what my issues are
you are doing the lords work in here brehyour already selling yourself short, there are over 3 billion women in the world not all will think your ugly
the mistake and danger is comparing yourself to others, everyone lives their own life breh, secondly if you want to graduate from college go whats stopping you?
your issues are confidenc and looking for some women to vaidate who you are.
Am I ugly? well ive never been in a relationship so I guess I'm ugly have to kill that mindset,
am I a loser? well everyone has a college education and I don't I guess I am
hav eto kill that mindset

you are doing the lords work in here breh
cant beleave that guy you quoted feels that way,keep fighting the good fight
, but she just mentioned how she likes the unique shape of my nose. Sme when I was a young kewn and hated how dark I was and this chick I was messing with saying how she wish she had the color texture of my skin. Nope, I haven't had "friends" since 08 and they weren't even my friends. I found out when I wasn't around they would talk about me behind my back and this had been going on since middle school. fukk that
my favorite threadyou need both theory and experience.
Without experience, theory has zero practical purpose, and without proper theory, you'll be setting yourself up to be taken advantage of.
How did u find out? What were they saying
We went to some girl's party around the college my friend went to. There were 4 of us and these broads pulled up yelling at us to come to them. I think there were five of them but they were drunk talking about they wanna fukk, give somebody head and what not. The 3 dudes were all up on the car trying to spit game while I stayed in the background on my phone playing a game. One of them got mad about it later and told somebody else that I was a loser and shyt. Also one of my friends girlfriend let her coworkers prank me by taking her phone and sending me love texts and shyt, talking about she wanted "a secret relationship". I fell for it and looked like a dumb ass after
Dudes use to do that back in high school so I know where your coming from. I had that happen to me. You shoulda confronted dude that was talking about you, he was wrong from that but let that shyt to go breh, its childish and things like don't make you a loser.