Man, I really been running from depression ever since my last relationship ended...had to let shyt go with the last chick I was fukking cuz she the one who broke us up and that shyt was not good for my mental health...fukked a few other chicks but it didn't help. Been smoking weed, staying active playing ball and lifting, hanging with the bros...I still have suicidal thoughts every now and then. trying to get a new job and finish my last year of undergrad strong but this shyt is hard...idk wtf to do
Keep your head up, breh. There's lots of other women out there. Use this as an opportunity to grow. No sense in going though all this shyt and not coming out a better man.
This woman, there are more like her, some even better. Now that you know this, and you know what surrendering your heart to one woman can do to you, what's the lesson? I would conclude talk to as many as those girls as you can and be very selective about who, if anyone, you give your heart to.
No woman will ever love you like your mama or like you love yourself. Understand that going in. Whatever relationship you're in is a physical representation of love mixed with animal lust. All things physical die. So your relationship, be it a night or a year or a decade, is finite. Know this going in. Unconditional love between a man and woman takes decades to achieve. That's 50th wedding anniversary ish. Right now, it's all conditional. I'm looking for conditions, she's looking for conditions and if all of these conditions are met then we're "in love" but that's not true love.
This is an opportunity to meet new people, expand your circle. Get into conversations with complete strangers, men and women alike. Ask questions. This is an act of caring that will lead the world to open up to you with love. Take solace and find peace in that. It's also a good way to meet ladies too (hint hint).